First Entry. =]

so, here is my first entry.
this part is easy. =D
it's maintaining the blog that's hard, but i think i'm up to it...
besides, i have a lot to rant and right about.
starting with..........

o dog

but of course, that's not her name.
for my purposes we'll call her by another name.
something shorter...
simpler...
easier to remember.

we'll call her dog

i've never met her in person, but to be perfectly honest, she looks like a dog.
maybe a toad.

she tries to look like marilyn monroe or whatever.
she wears her dark, curly hair in the same style as the blonde actress.
she even wears bright red lipstick.
oh, but here's the funny part... she's got a mole on her cheek too.
i'm sorry... it's a beauty mark for her. =D

Lol.

get a life, is all i can say.
i mean, really.

it's not the fact that she adores ms. monroe.
in fact, i think that's... well, cool. =]

what i don't like is how she writes.

her inspiration comes solely from her music.
there's nothing wrong with that, but it's wrong when you can only write about things that you hear in music, and you try to make your writing mirror the music.

can you say "copyright infringement"?

don't get me wrong. she's a great writer.
but if a song says "and the bees came along..."
then some bees will come along while she writes.

i dunno why she does that. she's an amazing writer.
and i tell her that, and i've even tried making her write without music.
but it's like they say...

you can lead a horse to water, but you can't make him drink it.

she's also a bit of a lost puppy.
(i guess her nickname does fit her. =])

but anyway, she clings. a lot.
when i first met her it didn't bother me.
she complained about how her other friends were slow posters and blahblahblah.

and she'd tell me about the other roleplays she had going on.
so i told her about my other roleplay.

she gets jealous.

we have "special moments" every one hundred posts.
we have planned things for our characters nearly every day.

she begins to think that i like her better than her...

and at that moment, i did.

i avoided talking to her.
she got grumpier.
when we did rp, her characters annoyed me.
she always wanted to start over.
her plots only included her characters.

her characters were so dynamic, it was hard to rp with them.
she knew exactly what she wanted to happen.

our first roleplay died.

we made a second one.

she used the same characters as always.

the same plots.

i got bored.

avoided her even more than usual.

stopped IMing her. told her i was playing the sims. she told me she hated the sims and all of her friends that played it. i said nothing.

flat out ignored her.

at this point i was sick of her complaints.
i was sick of her jealousy.

and i was sick of her greetings.

dog: heyz
dog: -rolls all over you-
dog: punch it in the face

etc, etc, etc, etc.

it all annoyed me. everything about her annoyed me. so i deleted her off my buddy list.

she IMed me the next day.

isn't that a b****?

asked what my status message meant.

status message: HAPPY 400!!!!

it was one of me and my other friend's celebration.

she got jealous. said that our one year anniversary was the next week.
"we should come up with something," she said.

ready to get her off my back...
too nice for my own good.

i agreed. promised to think of some stuff at school.
went invisible.

she imed me everyday.
and on our one year anniversary...
istayedinvisible.

now, i know i sound mean.
but come on. the idea/celebration thing she sent me was her same old ish.

her character.
his past.
him finding out something about it
my character= bystander.

no fun for me.

you think she'd understand that i'd given up on our roleplay.

i signed on the next day.
she questioned me about where i was.

"i couldn't get on, sorry. im going to play the sim's now..."

by now, i was using the sims to annoy her.

am i such a bad person? why couldn't i just tell her it was over? did i not want to hurt her? i already believed she was on depression meds. prozac. other things. she had so many problems...

it was obvious in her complaints.
it was obvious in her greetings.
dog: playyy with me...
dog: ashleeeeeeeeeeeeeee
dog: -rolls all over you-

but i continued to ignore her, and eventually she gave up.

she got mad at me that summer.

imed me.

dog: you've been avoiding me.
me: ....
dog: i'm deleting you off my buddy list.
me: go ahead. i don't care.
dog: i considered you one of my best friends. i don't know why you hate me.

could i do this? could i really tell her that she annoyed the crap out of me? that her characters, her greetings, the way she talked... could i tell her?

the answer: no.

we made up.
started a new roleplay.
it lasted a week before she began annoying me again.
i avoided her.

always too submissive. too afraid to take action.
maybe i annoyed her.

we stopped talking, and i stopped iming her.
she stopped iming me.

i dont know how long our silence lasted.

i dont remember if there was another roleplay in between.

and yes, i do say in between. i will bring that up....

we began talking again. simply because she decided to contact me.

i was nice, cordial. she asked me what i was doing.
me: roleplaying.
dog: we should start up a roleplay
me: i guess.

and we did.
and she's still her same old self. just twice as annoying.
her greetings consist of:

dog: moonwalks on you
dog: oh noesss

and she's obsessed with WoW.

she complains about life.
how she'll never go to college.
how her SAT scores were really low.

she compalins about WoW.
she complains.
she complains.
she complains.

and sometimes she simply whines.

it's been... three days since we roleplayed.

and for some reason i doubt i'll be able to tell her that i don't want to.