Until I Graduate

I don't know what's wrong with me. I just don't feel like the same person I was just a few short months ago. I know everyone else hasn't changed. They're the same happy people they always were. As for me? I just feel different. I don't know what it is. Yesterday, I sat in a conference room with two of my friends and although I talked to them, I felt so distant. We could have been sitting in two different rooms, in two different cities, in two different countries and that would have felt closer than the mere feet that seperated us. I don't know what's wrong with me. I'm lonely, but at the same time I've been shying away from any attempt at socialization. I rarely go to the conference rooms. I'd much rather go home after school. And maybe that's it. I am in all of my clases by myself. Absolutely no familiar faces from my school. I walk to class alone, and I walk from class alone. Sometimes I sit by myself at lunch alone because all of my friends either don't go or go at a different time. I don't think I really want to be alone, but I know how I function. I become close friends with people that I see, pass by on a daily basis, and have classes with. I'm absolutely alone in my world of English classes and speech, so I won't be talking to my friends. I don't have lunch with them, and I barely text them anymore.

It's a lonely life, but its' the life I have to lead until I graduate.

Schedule for Today

First, I would like to congratulate myself for getting a 20k scholarship to RMC. Not my first choice, but it gives me hope that I won't be forced to live here for the rest of my existence. Anyway, on to my next point.

I have an essay due tomorrow. One to two pages. I want it to be KA, so I plan on spending a lot of time on it even though it only needs to be a few words.

1. Come up with a basic outline for the paper and modify the thesis. 2:30-3pm
2. Read Peace, Love, and Baby Ducks 3pm-4pm
3. Write paper. 4:15pm-5pm
4. Read Peace, Love, and Baby Ducks 5pm-6pm
5. Write paper 6pm-7:15pm  FINISHED
6. Read PLBD and eat food/clean the kitchen

Writing, reading, writing, reading, eat, clean, watch TV. That's pretty much my schedule for today. Hopefully, I'll finish the paper earlier. Anyway, I guess I should get started now.

Potential Names

The School and Group of Scientists

• Corunum (Cor unum = one heart in latin)
• Corigenda (things to be corrected)
• Kronos: Creater of Zeus and Hades

For the Subjects

• Corigenda (things to be corrected)
• Denovo (from the new)
• demigod

Epic fail today

New Idea and To Do List

So for the past few days I've been mulling over an idea which eventually turned into a setting, which turned into a character or two, and then transformed into the begining of a plot .I will post what I know so far in this entry.

Set in the near future, is a boarding school. As of right now, it does not have a name. Anyway, at this boarding school, the kids are usually really smart. They excell in some area of study and they are very unique. They also suffer from the side affects of an experiment set by the group that runs the school. Their name has yet to be decided. Most of the experiments took place while they were in the womb or immediately after they were born. Sometimes both parents know about the experiments, one parent, or neither parent is aware of the drugs placed into their children. But what do these drugs do?

Originally, the scientists who created the drug wanted to create a new species of humans. Ones that were smart and would be able to wipe out the current species. He named them something, but I haven't quite thought of that yet. Anyway, he made the drug and tried it on a few kids and the results were fascinating. The drug changed the children's DNA and made them what society deems attractive, gave them special academic talents, and finally, it gave the children special abilities.

Shapeshifters, elementalists, telekinetics, and psychics wall the corridors of the boarding school. Most of them have recently become aware of their abilities, and at the school. However, few know what they have actually been created to do, and that is to wipe out the entire human raceand populate the world with their own species.

That's where Adrienne Bates comes in. Humble, meek, and shy Adrienne Bates was turned into a  _____ by her fahter, who is a part of the organization that wants to better the human race. She never knew her father, and he left immediately after she was born. And her mother has no clue what kind of daughter she has. Her mom has also dated an array of men. Drug dealers, doctors, criminals, lawyers-- her mom has dated so many people and she has been married four times. Each marriage doesn't last long. Her mom always cheats on her latest fling, causing them to break up. Therefore, Adrianne has distanced herself from her temporary fathers because she knows they'll be gone soon. She does, however, have a younger brother. They have two different fathers, and the young boy sees his father quite often.

 I haven't quite decided what her supernatural power will be, but I do know that she has frequent headaches and an insignia burned onto her forearm that most people think is a simple birthmark. However, her new father knows what the mark means. He's in the group as well, and so he ships her off to the boarding school where she meets a friend--Jeremy(may change) Todd.

Jeremy is a bit of a social outcast. He's escentric and has a sarcastic sense of humor. He spends a lot of his time on his computer playing RPGs where he can slay demons and team up with people to come up with complex plans to defeat the overlord. He relates everything to RPGs.

He has a classic family. A father that works, a stay at home mom, and a ton of brothers and sisters with ages that range from six months to the mid thirties. Jeremy is the middle child. Neither of his parents know that he is not exactly human. In fact, he wouldn't have ended up at the school if it wasn't for one of his middle school teachers. The teacher noticed the insignia burned on to his forearm and suggested that he go to the school. He told Jeremy's parents that it was a very exclusive school.

Jeremy is pretty good with computers, but he has a knack for Chemsitry. His power is also unknown at the moment.

As of right now, I'm thinking that there will be someone who left the school upon finding out what it stood for. He'll be somewhat of a legend on the school grounds, and eventually he will make his entrance into the tale.

As for now, that's all I have. I'll look up powers and names.

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Now for the to do list. For the second week of school, I sure have a ton of homework. But I'll take this one day at a time. My to do list for Friday is as follows.

1. Conduct research for my new plot idea. Things that need to be researched: RPG games, mythological creatures, super powers, a little Chemistry, and playwriters. Boarding Schools should also be researched further.
2. Read to page 90 in Beowulf.
3. Complete French Homework
4. Read for fun. =] You need to finish Lament.
5. Laundry
6. Towels
7. Make those funny sausages.
8. Clean room

Hopefully I'll be able to finish everything today and not procrastinate

The First Week Of School Is Complete

So I will describe my classes one by one along with my professors. What's funny is this is the AVID assignment for this week. ^^

• Advanced Composition (English  341): To be honest, when I signed up for this class I thought I had gotten myself into a huge mess. I mean, come on. Advanced Composition? It sounded boring even if it promised continuous writing. I thought this class would murder me. Instead, it's one of my favorite classes. It's like Socratic Seminar for English majors. She understands that the reading is difficult, and she expects us to discuss them. There are no right or wrong answers in her class. As for my professor, she's big, but not in an overweight big. She's basketball playerf/football player. She's built like an olympic athlete, and if it wasn't for the perpetual smile that graced her features people would run away from her cowering in fear. She's the embodiment of the saying, "Seeing is decieving." From what I've learned about her, she is a farm girl. She was born and raised in rural Minnesota, and when she graduated high school, she moved to urban Chicago. Talk about a huge change of scenery. She's a bit on the naive side, though. She honestly thinks that everyone is out to help her, or she used to. She's still getting used to city life if you can even call the urban disastor that we call home a city. She's a promising teacher though, and is someone taht encourages me to observe, write, and create.
• English Literature I (English 311): This class is also interesting, and I actually anticipate procrastinating on the reading material like I always do. Some things never change. Anyway, the class is interesting. We're starting with Beowulf, a book I've read before, but this time we're going to read the whole thing. My teacher seems to be a movie buff. I say this because she relates everything to movies. For example: she taught us about the definition of the word "canon" by taking us to IMDB and showing us the top ten films voted by IMDB users, and the top ten grossing films in the United States. She also promises that we'll watch Beowulf (not the one with Angelina Jolie) soon. Speaking of my professor, I find it ironic that she teaches an English Literature class. When you watch movies like Sweeney Todd or POTC, and you see the old Englishmen and women, the first thing you-or at least I-- notice is their teeth. Her teeth belong in one of those movies. They're rusty yellow color tinged with blacks and browns. They hang from her mouth at different sizes and some overlap each other. It's amazing how some people can't afford to go to the dentist, and I don't mean that in a degrading way. She's also short and plump like the rich people in Europe were back in the day. Her strawberry blonde hair, however, may point to an Irish background instead of an English background, but English and Irish backgrounds overlap. She's also the complete opposite of my Composition instructor. She's loud, and doesn't shy away from vulgar topics. Her jokes are pervy and crude, but so are mine and I like that about her.
• Elementary French I (French 12): Ah, how great is is to learn another language besides Spanish. It's different and similar in a way that makes knowing a little Spanish both a hinderance and a blessing. I've had my professor before so I'm familiar with her ways, and that familiarity is nice and comforting. I know her tests, I know her homework. I know her. Last year, I commented that my instructor is pretty. She's small, frail, and exactly what you would expect from a girl of French decent. She teaches yoga, and her hair is big. Brown, curly, and slightly frizzy, it frames and consumes her face. If she straightened it, and cut it shorter, she would be amazing. Especially with that bone structure. She should get a Tyra Makeover. Her accent is adorable, and I like watching her speak. She moves her lips in a way that doesn't seem particularly human. It's amazing, and when I try to speak her native tongue, I find myself mimicing her lip movements. She loves to cook, and she believes a lot of the sterotypes people have about her own culture. French people love to cook, French people are rude and snooty, French professors are evil. Normally, stereotypes annoy me, but we do it all the time. But you just have to remember that there are exceptions to every rude. Not everyone is like that, but she definitely is.
• Modern Biology (NSCI 120): I'm going to dread this class. Last semester, I thought Smelly was intolerable. His odor, his teaching methods, his homework. His class nearly drowned me in homework and prelabs while his excrutiating body odor suffocated me. It would have been a painful way to die, but at least I made it out alive and well although perpetually scarred. The second part of his course, though, will surely kill me. I, being the smart person that I am, decided tot ake it with another professor. One that would teach instead of give homework and who didn't reak of onions and spoiled milk. However, i didn't realize that the teacher I had chosen was on the polar opposite of Smelly. She teaches strictly by powerpoint. Not her own, I might add, but the one that came with the book. You would think this would be great, a smooth, easy ride. But it's not. Just like too much water can kill you, oversimplification will destroy you as well and it'll probably be twice as painful. The class is too easy for me, and poses no direct challenge. It'll be an easy A , I guess. Also, this professor is my only African American professor, which makes no difference to me, buti t's nice to point out these things. As for what I know about her, she has her MD, and she's definitely a Christian. For the evolution chapter, she refuses to lecture on it. Instead, we have to do a project. I don't care about evolution, and I'm not even sure I believe in it, but this shouldn't bother me. Instead, it bothers the crap out of me. Seperation of church and state means that we have to learn evolution, and just making us do a project on it will not suffice. Especially when she stated that Evolution was the key to biology. But whatever. My professor is also rather tall for a woman. At one point, she must have been beautiful, but age has not been kind to her. Her cheeks seem heavy,a nd weigh down her face. Her hair is uneven and is almsot always pulled into a tight professional bun. She used to be a psychiatrist, but for some reason she gave up the world of crazy patients and mental disorders for a teaching job at a second rate university. She must really have a passion for teaching.
• Introduction to Speech (Speech 200): I knew exactly what I was getting into with this class. I knew my professor was fun, I knew he was easy going, and I knew that the seniors last year passed his class with flying colors. Therefore, I signed up for his class, and I was not disappointed. He has a rule for everything funny yet horrible that has happened in his class from speech fetish erections to climbing through the window because you're late to class. From what I've learned about my professor, he likes journalism and is starting a journalism program at the school. He used to have a speaking disorder when he was younger, but int he fourth grade, he joined a speech competition and managed to take home the first place prize. That day, he'd found his calling. It's truely inspirationaly, I think, to remember sucha  life changing moment. I mean, it would have been a great college essay. As for me, I can't remember when I decided I wanted to major in english, when I decided writing was my calling. I think, because of my stubborness to stray from my dreams of majoring in prelaw, that my process to finding my calling was gradual, and by the time I realized it, it was too late. But I'm rambling now. Back to him. He's married, and he got married early. He doesn't care about what people think about him. He wears glasses, texts as much as any teenager, and he carries a small black brief case. His class will surely be interesting.

Anyway, the first week of classes is complete, and the second week is almost at its peek. I can honestly say I like the majority of my classes, I'm in love with my schedule, and my last semester of high school will surely be memorable. I've finally discovered who I am, and I'm ready to take on the world with the help of my new professors.

Schedule for 1/12/2010

Okay, I'm going to update on my college teachers later tonight, but as for now, here is a simple to do list.

• Bath/Read 1:30-2:30
• Beowulf first ten pages 3-3:45
• Break
• Advanced Comp reading last fifteen pages 5:30-6:30
• Break
• Review New French Words 7:30-8
• Nothing/Post blog entry and write

I have failed. Epically.

To-Do List

I don't have many things that I actually need to do, but I like making lists so that I can cross things off. It's the best part, you know.

• Edit draft
• Drink coffee
• Read
• Mirror or NRPP
• Think of stuff
• TEXT LIKE CRAZY

Know Yourself

It's amazing how much I've changed since entering highschool. During the ninth grade, I didn't know myself at all. What type of music I liked, the shows, my interests, and etc. were all questions I dreaded answering because I wasn't sure. I filled my mp3 player with songs my friends liked, and let them borrow it all the time. I read in secret because I didn't want them to know what I was reading. As for my talents? The only thing I knew how to do was make good grades and play the violin, and between you and me, I wasn't that great.

And then they made us take a personality test. If I had the option, I would have put somewhat for every answer, but I wanted to know myself. I yearned to know facts that came so easily to everyone else.

The results only fit me a little bit.

But after years of searching for myself, I can now proudly say that I know who I am and what I want to be. And to prove it, I've retaken the same personality quiz and have discovered that the results I got were me all the way.

I know what I want, I know what I like, and I know who I am. As cheesy as it sounds , Iknow who I am. And I'm happy about that.

Following My Resolution #1

Rock Out.

Bands to Check Out:
-The Exies: So far I'm in love with the song Ugly.
-Nirvana

Farm Life 3: Power Choices

I decided on neither I like the idea of scientists stealing children to turn them into super humans. I have a basic plot/background information in my head, and I'll jot it down now before I get into detail about the powers.

Okay, so this little girl who can't be more than twelve ( I haven't decided on her age yet) and her parents decide to visit the farm for some reason. I don't know why yet. Maybe they want to by some produce? Maybe it's not even a farm anymore. I don't know. We'll see. I just know the house is centuries old and is supposed to attract people. Not too many at once, but a decent number of people visit per year.

Anyway, the girl seems interesting enough to the farmers so they kill her parents, sedate her, and take her to the institution where they perform their experiments. There are different levels. You start off at level zero which means you have no powers. As you get more powers/more experiments done to you you get more levels, but there are tests that you must pass before you go to each level. It involves an arena and battling the other experiments to the death.

The winner goes on to the next level.

So my next question is, what power/enhancements will the give the girl? I don't really know her personality too much, but I do know she's tough, cold, a fighter at heart. She prefers to work alone. Sometimes, in the arena, when they allow more than two people in the battlefield, people make alliances. She doesn't.  She's slightly arrogant about her abilities, but she  doesn't slam that into people's faces. She's witty and sarcastic. She doesn't like to ask for help. She's stubborn and easily angered.

So let's dive into those powers. I don't really want to give her an elemental power. I feel like those are overused for some reason, but if I were to give her one it would be earth.

I considered necromancy for awhile, but I don't think that's her style. She likes to work alone, and summoning the dead just doesn't seem like her.

Psychic abilities? I may give her one and only one ,but I don't want that to be her focus. She's a fighter, and psychic ability just isn't violent enough. Not for her.

Chi and energy. I really like this one since they work together. She's a fighter, so this will work well for her. It will require research.

So it's between Earth, Chi/Energy.

Benefits of having Earth: She'll control plants, rocks, etc etc. And maybe even have a love for plants, which is funny considering you'd expect someone bright and happy to have a love for plants. I may even make her a vegetarian.

Benefits of Chi/Energy: Martial Arts. This is the power of a fighter, and she is a fighter, but I think this power may make her... 1D.

So I'm going with Earth. They will also enhance her hearing, speed, strength, stamina, and eyesight.

She'll either see the history of objects or the future through dreams. No, I'm giving her clairvoyance.

Clairvoyance is a risky one for the scientists. It would allow whoever has this power to hear and see their conversations unless they did something about it. I wouldn't be suprised if the augmented themselves so that no one could use their powers on them.

That will need to change later, and will prove an interesting problem to fix.

Farm Life 2: Witches, Faeries, or Neither?

Witches

• White Witches: Good witches who normally just heal
• Cast spells
• Rituals
• Spell books
• Potions
• Necromancy

Fairy

• Tricksters
• Some form of demon or angel
• Iron = bad
• Charms, rowan, and herbs are protection as well as iron
• Known kidnappers in some folklore
• "Although in modern culture they are often depicted as young, sometimes winged, humanoids of small stature, they originally were depicted much differently: tall, radiant, angelic beings " -Wikipedia
• One popular belief is that they are dead.
• Elementals distinct and more superior to humans
• Demonted angels
• Demons?

Neither

• They could be gifted humans.
• They could be scientists who kidnap people who they deem worthy of a treatment that'll enhance their senses. The ones who aren't worthy are killed.

I like neither and fairies better. I may go with neither, but I'm not sure.

Farm Life 1

• Farmer who grows organic crops in a 100 year old house.
• House has been in family forever
• Surrounded by woods
• Private
• One road. Dirt
• Him and his wife? Kids?
• Are they young? Are they old?
• Vampires? No, vampires are overused in the world today. It'd be too much like Dracula.
• Unless I wanted it to be a little remake off of dracula to show twi-hards what a real vamp is like.
• But no, vampires are overused, so I'll pick something else immortal.
• Ghosts? No
• Werewolf? Interesting. I'd have to look into werewolf mythology
• Witches? Even more interesting. Actually, very interesting, and I may go with that. But why would they want to attract humans to their home?
• Fairies? I kind of have an idea with this one. If it is fairies then they can attract humans to their home just for the fun of it, turn them into their slaves simply by having them eat their food, exploiting human greed or something.
• But I really like the witch idea., And the fairy idea. Witches could ultimately do the same thing ,couldn't they? It would be easy with a spell or two.
• This would have to be in third person, I think.

Resolutions

I know I'm a little late on this post, but at least it's here, right? I've been busy with college application stuff, and I'm finally done with all of the ones on commonapp. Now I just need to do chapel hill, and I will be done. xD Can't wait.

So now I'm moving onto my resolutions.

1. Write everyday.  I don't care if it's a poem, a short story, a blog entry, or a simple character sketch. I don't care. As of 1.06.10 I will write everyday. Check :)
2. Rock out. I've had this goal for my senior year, but I think I'll need a little extra kick for this one. I want to becomea full out rocker by college and build up my music library with some good music, you know? Going to a Shinedown concert. Definitely a check :)
3. Give up bad habits: Quit cold turkey, baby.

Wish me luck. ;D