Until I Graduate

I don't know what's wrong with me. I just don't feel like the same person I was just a few short months ago. I know everyone else hasn't changed. They're the same happy people they always were. As for me? I just feel different. I don't know what it is. Yesterday, I sat in a conference room with two of my friends and although I talked to them, I felt so distant. We could have been sitting in two different rooms, in two different cities, in two different countries and that would have felt closer than the mere feet that seperated us. I don't know what's wrong with me. I'm lonely, but at the same time I've been shying away from any attempt at socialization. I rarely go to the conference rooms. I'd much rather go home after school. And maybe that's it. I am in all of my clases by myself. Absolutely no familiar faces from my school. I walk to class alone, and I walk from class alone. Sometimes I sit by myself at lunch alone because all of my friends either don't go or go at a different time. I don't think I really want to be alone, but I know how I function. I become close friends with people that I see, pass by on a daily basis, and have classes with. I'm absolutely alone in my world of English classes and speech, so I won't be talking to my friends. I don't have lunch with them, and I barely text them anymore.

It's a lonely life, but its' the life I have to lead until I graduate.